i had been a vegetarian for almost 20 years before my medical drama.
this turned out to be a handy thing. it’s been so long since i’ve eaten any meat (yes, that includes chicken. and fish. and bacon.) that it’s no longer food to me. when i’m at a potluck, or looking at a menu, my eyes skim over the meaty things. it doesn’t bother me one bit to see other people eating meat. i’m not jealous that they can order the fried chicken and i can’t.
now i’m applying that same thinking to the list of things that are not for me because of my stroke, etc. things like:
• eating sandwiches with two hands
• roller blades
• walking dogs
• high heels
• flip flops (i kick my left foot just enough to send that sucker flying)
• wrapping presents neatly
• standing on one foot
• carrying things up and down stairs
• standing up from the floor without using my hands
• a career as a waitress
to be fair, a few of those things (high heels, for example) were not for me BEFORE i had my stroke.
i’m a little more than 2 years out from my stroke, and it’s taken me a while to get to the “that’s not for me” stage. yes, i watched people walking in flip flops and threw myself a quiet pity party. but now i have (mostly) successfully engaged the vegetarian part of my brain about these things. i can appreciate a cute pair of flip flops, just like i can appreciate a well-cooked piece of salmon – both things are fine for other folks, but are not for me.
if i had made this list 18 months ago, i would have included things like walking, driving, and crocheting. those things and many others were not for me for a while, but they are for me now. so i wonder what will be gone from this not for me list 18 months from now. i’m predicting that unicycles and high heels will still be on it.